I am still pregnant. Both babies have heartbeats and are doing well. I have had bleeding and spotting episodes pretty regularly. I even made a trip to the emergency room for some bright red bleeding. My RE said that because I’m on blood thinners and pregnant with twins, I can expect to bleed until around week 12.
Lately the anxiety has been getting worse. I have cried myself to sleep thinking about Caleb, just like I did when we first lost him. The thought that he may not know and feel how much I love him scares me. I’ve been too scared to write anything here, and too scared to purchase anything that might mean this is really happening. I did buy a Snoogle pregnancy pillow, because my back has been hurting so much. I figure I will use it anyway, since I have fibromyalgia. My elbow and knees have been acting up lately.
Cautiously optimistic….I’ve seen it so many times on forums and message boards, but the real meaning of the words-the experience, has only recently been revealed to me. I will keep hoping and praying that these are my rainbow babies.
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